Last night I got drunk and it took me to a place that I hadn’t been in a while. A few years ago, I did the same thing but it was on an extremely larger scale. I embarrassed myself and my best friend of 10 plus years. Our friendships were evaluated and I apologized day after day but they wanted more than just an apology, they wanted actions. So after that I stopped drinking for 8 months because I realized that I had let the alcohol take control of me. I loved the taste of it, the smell of it and how it made me feel. It was literally my drug of choice. I now still have a love for it but I was about to go back down the same road again. A few years before that I was in a car accident caused by another person but I was drinking and got charged with a DUI. Even though the guy slammed on brakes in front of me, the officer smelled the alcohol on my breath and took me straight to jail. So then I lost my car, driver’s license and my mother’s confidence in me. You would think that I learned from that experience. But I still traveled through life thinking that I was in control of the bottle but the bottle had me right where it wanted me. So now I am faced with a choice, happiness with my new boyfriend or the bottle. Clearly I want the happiness with my baby but I have to act like it and not just say it. Actions really speak louder than words. So to all of you out there just because it is legal doesn’t make it right. I was once told “all things in moderation”. I thought I learned that lesson a while back but history has a problem with repeating itself but I refuse to take the road that leads to destruction. I love life, so I will live it to the fullest and make better decisions instead of correcting mistakes.
And this was on the mind of Ivy Thoughts
If you’re not wearing green, you better be wearing Jade!!!!!!!!!
